I have always been a goal oriented person. I have always set goals for myself and I have always made sure that I would do whatever it takes to reach those goals. I used to push myself beyond my limits sometimes, just to reach my goal.
People used to compliment me about how goal oriented I was and how successful I was pushing myself to be.
After I’ve become a wife and mother of two… I’m pretty sure I’ve lost some of that goal setting motivation. I’ve even stopped making New Year’s resolutions, because I would make them and stick to them for a week then I would just forget about them and go back to what I was doing before. I feel like I’ve let myself down a little bit just to make sure everyone else is happy before myself. Which isn’t such a bad thing, but in order for me to take care of who matters to me most, I have to take care of myself too. So this year my biggest resolution is to actually make some resolutions for myself.
I decided to take the time to share what I want for myself this year, so I can be held accountable for my actions through my writing.
I want to be closer to God by being more devoted to my prayer life. I just started a prayer journal and I have already noticed a difference in how much I look forward to praying more. I absolutely love writing things out and seeing my prayers on paper helps motivate me to pray even more. I’m not writing every single prayer of mine down. I’m taking a few minutes a day to write out one long prayer and it helps me keep those things on my mind and it helps me say little prayers about those things throughout the day. I used to just keep a regular journal, but it wasn’t fulfilling my need for more time with God. I still update my regular journal every so often, but I have been putting my prayer time first and it has helped me so much more! I enjoy it already and I’m hoping to continue it in the new year. Through it, I hope to become closer to God and to become more aware of what it is I need to be doing for Him with my life and my spiritual gifts. I also need to pray more for my husband and children and our lives together.
I want to be closer to my husband by spending more quality time with him. Being married isn’t easy like some people believe it is. Like I believed it would be. It’s not all about being in love and being happy. There are times when we don’t agree on things and times when one of us is in a bad mood or sad. Add two babies to that and it gets a little hectic. We hardly have time for each other and when we do, we’re both so tired that it’s hard for us to even enjoy that time. Lately, we’ve been making more time for each other with small things and it has been so wonderful. I crave that time with him even more and it makes me so happy when I do get that time with him. He is such a wonderful person and he is the person that God made for me to spend my time with. I need to make MORE time for him and I hope to be able to find more time to spend with him.
I want to be a better mom and spend more time PLAYING and READING with my boys. I have this habit of cleaning. Not a bad habit, you’re probably thinking. I have been putting that habit before having play time with my boys, though. I used to think that if I get everything done around the house, there will be time later to spend with them. No. That’s not how it should be. It should be that there should be enough time to clean AFTER I play with my boys. The total opposite of what I’ve been doing. It makes me feel so bad that I don’t play and read with them as much as I keep up the house. I’ve been trying lately to make sure I play with them more often instead of washing the dishes or doing the laundry. I have all the time in the world to do house work. Yes, it’s nice to have a clean house… but I’d rather have happy playful kids that enjoy spending their time with me than a clean house that isn’t even going to love me back. I am thankful for my house and it is important to me to keep it clean, but my time with my boys is more important to me. They enjoy playing and they enjoy reading, so that’s what I’d rather spend my time doing with them instead of them just watching me and helping me do house work all the time.
I want to spend more time with our family. I have a very large family. I thought it was big before I got married. Well, after I got married, it became two times larger. I love my family so much and they have made me who I am today. I love my husband’s family so much too and they are who made my husband the way he is today, the man that I am in love with. I want to make sure that I spend more time with all of the people that I love and I want to make sure my children spend time with them too. Family is so important of all shapes and sizes. Since we are all getting older and starting our own lives away from each other, it gets harder for us to get together and spend some good quality time together. It makes it hard for us to all stay close and tight knit like we used to be. I’m very thankful for technology and the things we have to make sure we have communication with our loved ones, but it just isn’t the same as seeing them and hugging their necks. This year, I want to make sure that we get to spend more time with our family from both sides and from all angles.
I want to be more involved in the church. This past year I became the children’s minister at our church. I haven’t been able to be very involved and do as much work for the church, because of my distractions with having a newborn and being a mom of two. I haven’t been putting church on my top priority list and I feel like it should be up there. I want our church to grow and become more alive. The only way it will do that, though, is if I get more involved and actually do what I’m supposed to be doing as a children’s minister. I need to bring in more children into the church and help our children’s ministry grow.
I want to reach more people for Christ. I don’t get out much. I do most of my witnessing for Christ online. I’m hoping to reach more people this year with my writing and with my posts, for Jesus. It is our commission as Christians to share the gospel and bring others to Christ. I’d like to fulfil my commission and do what I’m supposed to do here on earth.
I want to spend more time with myself by investing time in my writing. I love to write! It has always been one of my passions that I will never grow out of. I’ve had all kinds of hobbies, but this hobby is my favorite. It helps me express myself and it helps me relieve stress. I may not be the best at it, but I love doing it and I want to spend more time doing it this year.
I want to spend more time improving my health physically. This one gets me every time. I set this resolution almost every year and I fail every year. I start exercising, eating better, drinking more water, and not eating as many sweets. By the end of January, I am back into my old habits. I’m not sure why it is so hard to stick to this one. I really want to be healthier physically. I really want to LOOK healthier physically. Why is it so hard for me to stay motivated to keep up this resolution? I think it’s because I am lazy. I need to be less lazy and maybe this resolution will stick. I was telling my husband the other day that the better I feel physically, the better I feel about getting things done around the house and the more energy I have to play with the kids. That is completely true and I have been trying to exercise more to make sure I feel better about those things. It all starts with self-motivation and I’m working on improving that.
I want to make more friends. I have a weird way of staying away from people. I’m a people person, but I just have a hard time making good friends with any of them. I’m good with making acquaintances and keeping up with people on Facebook. When it comes to being close to people, though, I keep it at my husband and close family. I used to have best friends in high school and I used to tell them everything, but I filled up that space in my heart with my husband and family after I got married. I haven’t made room in my heart for close friends. I know that my husband will always be my best friend, but I feel like it would be healthy for me to have some friends to spend time with. I don’t want drama though. I will shut that stuff down very quickly if it comes anywhere near me.
I don’t want to get pregnant. This one is funny, right? You think I’m joking? Nope! I’m completely serious. I actually talked to my husband about this one yesterday and he completely agrees with me. We are waiting on having another baby for a few years and this year, I don’t want to be pregnant. I want to fulfill all of the resolutions on this list and I know for a fact that another baby would not help any of these one bit. I know that if it was God’s plan for us to have a baby, then we wouldn’t go against it. BUT I definitely want to wait a few years and make sure I have time to fulfill these things and build a better life for our family. Of course, I’m wanting to have more kids and expand our family, but I feel like this year just isn’t the year to do that.
Notice that every one of these resolutions involves time. I just don’t seem to have enough time to put anything into action. Or maybe I have plenty of time, but I just don’t know how to balance my time and attention very well. I don’t think I was born with that ability. If I was, it must have gone out the window when I got married. Who knows?
I don’t know how much time I have left on this earth, but I want to make sure that I spend it well and these resolutions seem great! Let’s just hope I can stick to them.
What are your resolutions? Or do you make resolutions? Why or why not?
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